Who Am I...?

       

       I had a real roller coaster ride in 2018.  That was definitely the year of many loses, lessons learned and ever-changing paths.  I have definitely changed in many ways.  I have grown both as a person and into a whole new person altogether.  So, who am I now...  

       I am a parent, a full-time vegetarian, a 100% TRUE believer in The Bible and in our Lord Jesus Christ.  I am a Single Widow now, An explorer, a creative person, a music and nature lover, a Film Editor, a free spirit, a realist and an optimist.  I am a lover of a simplistic life, a minimalist, a Chocoholic, a great slow and careful thinker, a lover of documentaries, a proud Cherokee Native American (til I die), a youthful middle-aged Fox, a writer, an on-camera personality, and an all-around Totally Foxy Virgo !  

      I am all of those things and so much more...  Now for the loses and things that changed my life and who I am inside FOREVER...  In 2018, I lost my estranged wife "Chipmunk" to Breast Cancer.   I never got to say goodbye to her.  I lost 2 of my four kids because of her death.  1 placed in a foster home and the other on her own in a group home.  So now, I am fighting just to get 1 of them back in my custody.  The other is 20 years old and has chosen a path in life of her own.  GOD, please be with her...  I lost my car, permanent severed contact with my sister, an uncle passed away, an aunt passed away, a cousin passed away (Many multiple deaths in 2018), my job, my place and I almost my sanity.  2018 was definitely the year of GREAT LOSES and many lessons learned for me.  

 

The "Chipmunk"

      I could be 1 really bitter person right about now if I really wanted to be, but NO...  I truly believe GOD has a much greater plan for me and I needed to learn many great lessons in my life.  I also learned NOT to hold onto worldly things / personal possessions.  They overall hold absolutely no real value in this world.  The BIBLE also tells us not to hold onto things in this world, for when we do, we will lose these things (and so much more) and suffer for it.  Well, I am living proof, that this is 100% TRUE !  I lost EVERYTHING and everyone that I had in my life.  I almost completely lost everyone around me, including the few close friends that I once had.  I even lost someone who was VERY Special to me, after my wife and I had separated apart...  

 

Marisol "Smurfette" Acevedo

       I have been forced to change the entire person that I once was and I am still trying to figure out, who I am now ?  The lessons that I have learned for me was life altering forever.  I am now continuing to blaze a new path in life, as I continue to re-invent myself here in 2019, into a whole new me...  My past life, personality, ATTACHMENTS, and self-identity are ALL GONE NOW !  GOD has wiped away clean, EVERYTHING that was once : "ME" !  In "HIS DEVINE PLAN", I am now moving forward with a clean and blank canvas.  I will now just step back and allow HIM to paint the picture of who I am now !   

  

Live your Dreams and ALWAYS : Reach for The Stars...  

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Written and Published : January 31st, 2019 - 5:00 AM